All Too Well Rewrite

——–Content Warning——-
This song was not written in a positive light and is quite depressive. It would be best not to be read if your mind is not in a good place

Trigger Warning: Suicide
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This is a rewrite of All Too Well by Taylor Swift. The sound of this song really captures some of my feelings so I also changed the lyrics to do so. Once you’vehad a mental illness you remember it all too well and when certain feelings return you know them all too well. That’s what this song is about and what the repitition of all too well touches on.

I woke up this morning and my mind was cold
But something bout it felt like home somehow and I
Kinda got used to this mindset all freaked out
I had some good weeks but upset again now
Oh my calm disposition
And my wide eyed gaze
I’m crying in my car feeling lost
All day
The autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
I hope this season is better than my last days

Happiness long gone and my
Magic’s not here no more
I might feel okay but I’m not fine at all

Cause there I am again anxious walking down the street
Thinking there’s nothing good here left for me
Why should I care if I’m there I remember things all too well

Photos of the past
My cheeks were turning red
I used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin sized bed
And my mother told stories and I’d watch the ball game
Now Im thinking about my past thinking where is my future

Feels like it’s long gone and there is nothing else I can do
I forget why I’m staying strong enough and forget why I need to

Cause here I am again in the middle of the night
My brain waking up and engaging me in a fight
Do I care? I am here. I remember it all too well, yeah

Maybe I got lost in translation
Maybe I didn’t try enough
But I don’t feel like a masterpiece
I’ve been torn all up
Running scared do I care? I remember things all too well
Anxiety comes up again and breaks me like a promise
So casually cruel what’s the point in being honest
I’m a crumpled piece of paper lying here
Cause no one remembers all too well

Time will fly and I’m paralyzed by it
I’d like to be my old self again
But I’m still trying to find it
After stressed out days and nights when
I was on my own
People suffer from this why do I walk alone?
Feels like I’m back in that very first week
When I was first anxious and felt up the creek
You can’t get rid of this and I
Remember it all too well

Because here we are again and I
Have another
Seems like this illness is the one real thing I’ve ever known
Do you care? If I’m not there? I know it all too well

Do they care? I’m aware I remember it all
Down the stairs I am there I remember it all
It’s not rare do I care I remember it all too well

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Author: Anxiety Blog

An anonymous person writing songs about anxiety

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