Numb Rewrite

——CONTENT WARNING—–
This song is best to not be read if your mind is in a bad place. It is not uplifting but rather shows darker thoughts
——————————

Lincoln Park wrote songs that are very relevant to mental illness. I try to rewrite songs that do the same here. This is a rewrite of Numb. Please share it if you enjoyed!

I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Can’t live up to what’s expected of me
Put under the pressure of pretending to be okay

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in undertow

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

Can’t you see anxiety smothers me
I hold on too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause I’m not anything I wish I could be
I just fall apart nothing good I can do

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Is my life just a waste? There’s more than I can take

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

And I know everything I fail too
Don’t know how they can like me
Are they just dissapointed in me?

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)
I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)

Let’s Hurt Tonight Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Let’s Hurt Tonight by One Republic. This inspired by the feelings of a bad night and that sinking, spiraling felling that happens when things get bad.

When, when I come home
Worn to the bones
I know when things start to get rough
And when, when I am off which happens a lot
It feels like no one comes and I’ve had enough

Oh I know that anxiety is pain
But I can’t stop this forward chain no

So I’ll hit the lights and I’ll lock the doors
I ain’t leaving this room can’t feel anymore
Wish I could leave this behind and myself surprise
But I just feel this pain let me hurt tonight

When when I get down
All I can do is frown
And everything I do is rough

Now I’m just feeling insane
This hurt can’t be explained

Just let me hit the lights and lock the doors
And I don’t care if I just get ignored
If I told someone would they roll their eyes?
All I feel is this pain let me hurt tonight
Why do I feel this pain why do I hurt tonight?

I want to hit the lights and lock all the doors
But is it really good if I just am ignored?
Should I walk away try to surprise?
Can I leave behind this pain and go out tonight?
Can I leave this pain and live a normal life?

Hallelujah Rewrite

This is a rewrite of The really famous song Hallelujah. It’s another song I’ve done from a Christian perspective and really describes my experience well.

Now I have ways in my mind stored
That when I get anxious their help afford
But you probably don’t know the crucial one do you?
I get attacks a fourth a fifth
And by the time I get a sixth
I realize that I’ve forgotten Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

My faith’s not strong I need proof
When my anxiety goes through the roof
I feel useless like it overthrew me
Feels like I’m tied to a kitchen chair
It breaks my throne and it cuts me down
Yet from my lips it draws Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

I realize that I always feel the same
And in my issues I forgot your name
And when it gets bad well really I remember
There’s a blaze of light in your Word
And I will bow when it is heard
And I come to you with broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

I do my best doesn’t feel like much
I can’t feel I’ve gone numb and such
You tell the truth and I can’t fool you
And even though my life’s gone wrong
I’ll stand before the Lord in song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah x17

Falling Slowly Rewrite 

This is a rewrite of Falling Slowly from the Broadway musical Once. This was inspired by anxiety in general and the feelings of just wanting to get better.

I don’t know this
And I don’t want it
Anymore at all
Words fall through me
They always fool me
And I overreact
And plans that never amount
When they had been thought through
Will always disappoint

I’m a sinking boat please point me home
While there’s still time
Raise a hopeful voice that there’s a chance
I’ll make it out

Falling slowly I’m so lonely
And I can’t go back
Moods just take me and erase me
And my mind attacks
Have I suffered enough?
If I’m at war with myself
How can I ever win?

I’m a sinking boat please point me home
Is there still time?
Lend a hopeful voice do I have a choice
To make it out

Falling slowly but if you catch me
I can be okay

Who Do You Love Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Who Do You Love by Marianas Trench. This song just expresses a lot of the emotions thoughts and feelings that run through my mind with anxiety.

Well I’ve been deep in this sleeplessness
And I do know why
Wish I’d get away from myself
Will I get back on my feet and blow things open wide?
Will I ever feel good health?

Oh it’s been so long
Anxious and wish I
Was someone else
I don’t know how people see me
But I hate the way I see myself
All I can feel is broken
And I’ve been this way too long
I hear the words I’ve spoken
And everything comes out wrong
I just can’t get this together
Can’t get where I belong

How can I love?
How can I love?
How can I love?

And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
Screaming
How can I love? x7

From fable to fumble
From stable to stumble
That is me
I can’t seem to shake this anxiety
And come back to propiety
I wish I could
Can I come back to life broken?
Or should I stay away for long?
Even if words I’ve spoken
Seem to still come out wrong
Trying to get life together
And go where I belong

How can I love? x3

And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
Screaming
How can I love? x8

Wish things would quiet
I wouldn’t have to move
Moving on might as well try it
What if everything I lose?
Want nothing to change but then I loose.

And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
Screaming
How can I love? x16

How can I love?

Because of You Rewrite

——Content Warning: This song is best to not be viewed if your mind is in a bad place—–

—–Trigger Warning: Suicide—-

———————
This is rewrite of Because of You by Kelly Clarkson. And it’s written as what I’d say to anxiety. This is essentially almost a list of what it’s done to me mentally and what I feel when I’m in a bad place. I hope you enjoy it and if you do please give it a share if you feel so inclined.

If you want a link to the original here it is https://youtu.be/CTTjLxXFg0k

All I do is make the same mistakes repeatedly
And I will let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I just wil break over and over
I fall so hard
I learned the hard way
But still I let it go this far

Because of you
I never stray too far from my comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find hard to to love all of me, and I hurt everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s way too long before I figure it out
All I do is cry
Because weakness is all I am in my eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile a laugh every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from my comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find hard to to love all of me, and I hurt everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I want to die
No one hears me cry at night before sleep
I am so young
How can I know better to lean on things?
I find it hard to think of anyone else
All I see is my pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the very same thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I don’t know how to deal with anything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Begin Again Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Begin Again by Taylor Swift. It was inspired by trying to restart your life and learning to live with anxiety and after major events or big changes. I was actually able to write this in one shot with no changes to the lyrics or syllablea.

Took a deep breath in the mirror
I dont want to be in this spot
But I am
Go to work and I’m on high alert
Feels like I just cant move on
But I do, I do

Walk in don’t wan to talk at all
But people don’t know what’s going and they say hi
I wish they would see and not pull me in
But they don’t know what’s happening
But I do

I run to the bathroom crying like a little kid
It’s strange I have this now cause I never did
I’ve been spending the last few months
Thinking all I ever do is break things hurt and end
But I wonder if theres a way I can learn to begin again

I wish I could find a way
To talk about my problems the way some do
But I can’t
I’d tell stories and I don’t know why
I come off as pretty shy
But I do

I try to talk it all out like a little kid
I think it’s strange that people don’t run cause I thought they would
I’ve been spending the last few months
Thinking all I ever do is break things hurt and end
But now I wonder if I can make things begin again

And I walk down the hall to my room and I need to go to sleep
But my mind wonders about everything I’ve done
Every single attack and I want to move past that
And I start to think about when this will be the past.

And I’ll throw my head back laughing like a little kid
And think it strange that I was like this and what I did
And I know I will spend those months
Thinking of other ways I can love and help and care
Because on a weekday in a cafe I learned how to begin again

Because one day, someday I’ll have learned how to begin again