I Miss the Mountains Rewrite

This is a rewrite of I Miss the Mountains from the Broadway Musical Next to Normal. This musical is all about mental health so I had to rewrite a song for this blog. This rewrite describes the ups and downs of going through a mental illness. The original song is sung by a lady who is bipolar. However I have modified it to explain my experience with anxiety and my own mental illness. Please share it if you enjoyed.

Here’s the original if you would like to hear it https://youtu.be/Rt09n4O-OrE

There was a time when I flew higher
Was a time that mountians gave me peace, I could see
Now I see me, scared and broken
Now it seems that they have changed I’m scared
I’m nowhere

All these sad and anxious months
Seems they’ve sapped up all my strenghth
I’m no longer free or fast
Feels my happy days are past

But I miss my mountains
I miss the peaceful heights
All the fun and happy days
And the peaceful quiet nights
What are these mountains?
I hate the new highs and lows
All the climbing all the falling
All the rest I had is now gone
I’m being stung with snow
And being soaked with rain
I liked the peace
I hate this pain

Mountains make me crazy
They were safe and sound
My mind is somewhere hazy
My feet aren’t on the ground
I was in the mountains there And on an even keel
Everything was perfect
Nothing’s real
Nothing’s real

And I miss my mountains
I miss my safe climb
Mountains are now very unsafe
I liked spending all my time
Where the air is clear and comforts your life
I miss my mountains
I miss my mountains
I miss my life
I miss my life

Numb Rewrite

——CONTENT WARNING—–
This song is best to not be read if your mind is in a bad place. It is not uplifting but rather shows darker thoughts
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Lincoln Park wrote songs that are very relevant to mental illness. I try to rewrite songs that do the same here. This is a rewrite of Numb. Please share it if you enjoyed!

I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Can’t live up to what’s expected of me
Put under the pressure of pretending to be okay

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in undertow

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

Can’t you see anxiety smothers me
I hold on too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause I’m not anything I wish I could be
I just fall apart nothing good I can do

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Is my life just a waste? There’s more than I can take

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

And I know everything I fail too
Don’t know how they can like me
Are they just dissapointed in me?

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)
I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)

Back to December Rewrite

—–Content Warning——
This article is best not to be read if your mind is in a bad place.
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This is a rewrite of Back to December by Taylor Swift. This is about remembering how easy things used to be and what life was like before this illness. I hope you consider sharing this if you like it!

I’m so bad it’s never easy
How’s life? That’s what someone asks me
I haven’t been fine in awhile
I’m not good. As panicky as ever
I make small talk, work but I wither
My guard is up now all the time
Because now when someone sees me
It feels they burn in the back of my head
Are they looking and judging who I am?

So this is me standing here without pride
Wondering where in the world my life has gone
And I go back to December all the time
When I had freedom and wasn’t anxious at all
Wishing I’d realized what I had when I was fine
I’d go back to December and remember being fine
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up playing back my mistakes
When my birthday passed and it felt noone cared at all
And now it’s summer beautiful all the time
I watch people laughing and having fun
Realize I don’t have much at all

I want the cold here, and dark days before fear crept into my mind
Wish I could feel all their love instead of feeling Goodbye

So where in the world is my pride
Doesn’t feel like I have anything left at all
And I go back to December all the time
Where’s my freedom I miss good days
Wish I’d realized what I had being happy all the time
I’d go back to December and realize what was mine
I go back to December all the time

People posting tanned skin, sweet smiles
So good for them, so right
And darkness holds me in its arms on these summer nights
And all I want to do is cry

I know this is wishful thinking
And just mindless dreaming
But if I’m loved again I swear I’ll do it right

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
Now pain is all around don’t understand

This is me where is my pride
Standing out here saying I’m sorry for what I am tonight
And I go back to December
Just want freedom and to stop missing things
Wishing I’d realized what I had when things were fine
I’d go back to December and wonder how to make it right
I’d go back to December and wonder if I can change my own mind

I go back to December all the time
All the time

Let’s Hurt Tonight Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Let’s Hurt Tonight by One Republic. This inspired by the feelings of a bad night and that sinking, spiraling felling that happens when things get bad.

When, when I come home
Worn to the bones
I know when things start to get rough
And when, when I am off which happens a lot
It feels like no one comes and I’ve had enough

Oh I know that anxiety is pain
But I can’t stop this forward chain no

So I’ll hit the lights and I’ll lock the doors
I ain’t leaving this room can’t feel anymore
Wish I could leave this behind and myself surprise
But I just feel this pain let me hurt tonight

When when I get down
All I can do is frown
And everything I do is rough

Now I’m just feeling insane
This hurt can’t be explained

Just let me hit the lights and lock the doors
And I don’t care if I just get ignored
If I told someone would they roll their eyes?
All I feel is this pain let me hurt tonight
Why do I feel this pain why do I hurt tonight?

I want to hit the lights and lock all the doors
But is it really good if I just am ignored?
Should I walk away try to surprise?
Can I leave behind this pain and go out tonight?
Can I leave this pain and live a normal life?

Hallelujah Rewrite

This is a rewrite of The really famous song Hallelujah. It’s another song I’ve done from a Christian perspective and really describes my experience well.

Now I have ways in my mind stored
That when I get anxious their help afford
But you probably don’t know the crucial one do you?
I get attacks a fourth a fifth
And by the time I get a sixth
I realize that I’ve forgotten Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

My faith’s not strong I need proof
When my anxiety goes through the roof
I feel useless like it overthrew me
Feels like I’m tied to a kitchen chair
It breaks my throne and it cuts me down
Yet from my lips it draws Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

I realize that I always feel the same
And in my issues I forgot your name
And when it gets bad well really I remember
There’s a blaze of light in your Word
And I will bow when it is heard
And I come to you with broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

I do my best doesn’t feel like much
I can’t feel I’ve gone numb and such
You tell the truth and I can’t fool you
And even though my life’s gone wrong
I’ll stand before the Lord in song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah x17

Falling Slowly Rewrite 

This is a rewrite of Falling Slowly from the Broadway musical Once. This was inspired by anxiety in general and the feelings of just wanting to get better.

I don’t know this
And I don’t want it
Anymore at all
Words fall through me
They always fool me
And I overreact
And plans that never amount
When they had been thought through
Will always disappoint

I’m a sinking boat please point me home
While there’s still time
Raise a hopeful voice that there’s a chance
I’ll make it out

Falling slowly I’m so lonely
And I can’t go back
Moods just take me and erase me
And my mind attacks
Have I suffered enough?
If I’m at war with myself
How can I ever win?

I’m a sinking boat please point me home
Is there still time?
Lend a hopeful voice do I have a choice
To make it out

Falling slowly but if you catch me
I can be okay

Who Do You Love Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Who Do You Love by Marianas Trench. This song just expresses a lot of the emotions thoughts and feelings that run through my mind with anxiety.

Well I’ve been deep in this sleeplessness
And I do know why
Wish I’d get away from myself
Will I get back on my feet and blow things open wide?
Will I ever feel good health?

Oh it’s been so long
Anxious and wish I
Was someone else
I don’t know how people see me
But I hate the way I see myself
All I can feel is broken
And I’ve been this way too long
I hear the words I’ve spoken
And everything comes out wrong
I just can’t get this together
Can’t get where I belong

How can I love?
How can I love?
How can I love?

And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
Screaming
How can I love? x7

From fable to fumble
From stable to stumble
That is me
I can’t seem to shake this anxiety
And come back to propiety
I wish I could
Can I come back to life broken?
Or should I stay away for long?
Even if words I’ve spoken
Seem to still come out wrong
Trying to get life together
And go where I belong

How can I love? x3

And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
Screaming
How can I love? x8

Wish things would quiet
I wouldn’t have to move
Moving on might as well try it
What if everything I lose?
Want nothing to change but then I loose.

And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
And I’ve been deep in this anxiousness
I don’t know why
Just can’t get back to myself
How can I get back on my feet and blow things open wide
And get back to having good health
Screaming
How can I love? x16

How can I love?