Saving Amy Rewrite

TW: Suicide

This is a rewrite of Saving Amy by Brantley Gilbert. Anxiety can sometimes get you to be so down about your problems that it can lead you to these thoughts. While I’m not actively suicidal that doesn’t stop some of these thoughts from still coming when things are really dark. This rewrite is based on some of the darkest thoughts anxiety can give you. As the Trigger Warning states this is a dark rewrite and could be potentially triggering to some people.

If you would like to listen a long here is a link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WP1fWHHU2ZU

Would they find the letters I wrote
And keep my picture in a frame
After a year they might let go
And life would be the same
If I just did it one night if I just let go
And ended things forever in hopes of going home
If I never made it home one night
Would a part of someone die too?
They need not go lose their mind
It’s not worth it this is true
No one would need to go crazy and scream out my name
And would anyone come save me
To get through this I’d do anything

To get the tears out off my face
And realize everything’s okay
Feel my heartbeat going fine
And not lose all my time
Oh but God please help
You know I can’t keep living this way
Is it too late for saving me?
If there’s still hope please come and get me

When three years go by
And they’re living life
Would they remember me sometimes?
I’m sure they’d be alright
Without me being there
They were in my heart and my dreams
I thought of them forever when I did it I miss them but will they miss me?

And now the tears fall from my face
As nothing ever feels okay
I feel my heart pick up the pace
How fast this time goes
But oh God you know I can’t
I can’t keep living this way
If there’s still hope for saving me
Please come now and rescue me

God, kiss the tears off of my face
One day walk me through your gates
Calm my heartbeat in good time
Show me that I can be fine
God I thank you for everyday
Restore my every ounce of faith
And come back now and rescue me

I wish somebody would save me
me, save me
I wish somebody would save me
Come and save me
I wish somebody would save me
Come and save me x3
Save me
I wish somebody would come save me

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Better Man Rewrite

This is rewrite of Better Man by Little Big Town and is about feeling low, worthless, a burden to friends, and not good enough.
Here’s a link to the original song if you wish to listen a long. Please share if you enjoyed!

I know I’m probably better off on my own
Than being a burden on those who don’t know anxiety and that I have it
And I know the permanent damage it’s done to me
Never again I wish I could forget that I have it

I wish it wasn’t 2 am rolling in my bed
Saying to myself you know you’re not worth it
I know the bravest thing I ever did was talk

Sometimes in the middle of the night I feel it again
I get nervous and I just wish I were a better man
And I know I do my best and try but I need someone’s hand
But I stay silent and I just wish I were a better man
A better man

I know I’m probably better off all alone
Than needing someone to give me all of the answers
And it’s always on my terms I spit out so many careless words
Begging for help but not noticing what to them it’s doing

There’s some jealousy and some anger now
Just talk down to me it’s what I deserve I’ve found
Why don’t you push me away after everything I’ve done?
Maybe I’m not really done

But

Sometimes in the middle of the night I feel it again
I get nervous and I just wish I were a better man
And I know I do my best and try but I need someone’s hand
But I stay silent and I just wish I were a better man
A better man

Can I hold onto my pride? But that I don’t even have
And you give me my best and we all know I can’t say that
I can’t say that
I wish I were a better man
I wonder if that I can become
Can I be a better man?
Can I deserve to love?
If I am a better man
Maybe I can meet the one
If I am a better man

Yeah
Sometimes in the middle of the night I’m upset again
And I’m sick of this and I just wish I were a better man
And I know why things can go awry like the back of my hand
And I want life and I want myself to be a better man

What might come for me next if I were a better man
A Better man.

Stay Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Stay by the country band Sugarland. It’s written as if it’s a question to the anxiety and asking why it stays. If you want to follow a long here’sa link https://youtu.be/zPG1n1B0Ydw

I’ve been sitting here staring
At the clock on the wall
And I been laying here praying
Praying this will go
Once again I feel alone
I feel like everyone’s gone
And I sit hear crying
And I keep beggin anxiety
I beg it just to leave
And I sit hear waiting
For this pain to alieve
Everytime it happens here
Feels like a million years
And I think I’m dying

What do I have to I have to do to make you see.
I have problems loving me?

Why do you stay?
I’m down on my knees
I’m so tired of being lonely
Who can give me what I need?
Who do I call to make you go?
There is one thing you should know
I can’t live this way
So anxiety why do you stay?

They keep telling me now that
There will come a time
When you will leave my heart
And I can have my time
But I dont know that’s the truth
And I don’t like being used
And I’m tired of waiting
It’s too much pain to have to bear
With who this pain can I share?

Why do you stay?
I’m down on my knees
I’m so tired of being lonely
What is it that you need?
Can I call you just to go?
There is one thing you should know?
I cannot live this way
Anxiety why do you stay?

I can’t take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
Do I waste all my minutes?
What do I need to put in it?
I need to find some rest
But what resting can I do?
Yet next time I find
I’m anxious what will I do this time?

Why do you stay?
I’m up off my knees
I’m so tired of being lonely
Worry doesn’t give me what I need
When I beg you to now go
There is one thing you should know
I refuse to live this way
I won’t let you stay.

Back to December Rewrite

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This article is best not to be read if your mind is in a bad place.
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This is a rewrite of Back to December by Taylor Swift. This is about remembering how easy things used to be and what life was like before this illness. I hope you consider sharing this if you like it!

I’m so bad it’s never easy
How’s life? That’s what someone asks me
I haven’t been fine in awhile
I’m not good. As panicky as ever
I make small talk, work but I wither
My guard is up now all the time
Because now when someone sees me
It feels they burn in the back of my head
Are they looking and judging who I am?

So this is me standing here without pride
Wondering where in the world my life has gone
And I go back to December all the time
When I had freedom and wasn’t anxious at all
Wishing I’d realized what I had when I was fine
I’d go back to December and remember being fine
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up playing back my mistakes
When my birthday passed and it felt noone cared at all
And now it’s summer beautiful all the time
I watch people laughing and having fun
Realize I don’t have much at all

I want the cold here, and dark days before fear crept into my mind
Wish I could feel all their love instead of feeling Goodbye

So where in the world is my pride
Doesn’t feel like I have anything left at all
And I go back to December all the time
Where’s my freedom I miss good days
Wish I’d realized what I had being happy all the time
I’d go back to December and realize what was mine
I go back to December all the time

People posting tanned skin, sweet smiles
So good for them, so right
And darkness holds me in its arms on these summer nights
And all I want to do is cry

I know this is wishful thinking
And just mindless dreaming
But if I’m loved again I swear I’ll do it right

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
Now pain is all around don’t understand

This is me where is my pride
Standing out here saying I’m sorry for what I am tonight
And I go back to December
Just want freedom and to stop missing things
Wishing I’d realized what I had when things were fine
I’d go back to December and wonder how to make it right
I’d go back to December and wonder if I can change my own mind

I go back to December all the time
All the time

Another Try Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Another Try by Josh Turner. This one is a bit darker and shows just how bad anxiety can make a person feel.

Here’s a link to the original song if you want to watch it https://youtu.be/ngHkbz8wTuk

All the things I said and shouldn’t have
All the times I was stressed with no one there
The tears I’ve let fall
From my eyes and I was anxious
But it was out of sight

The reasons I’m alone I know by heart
Just let me sit here in the dark
Anxiety makes me wish away my life
Am I ever going to get another try?

There’s no changing things I regret
The best that I can hope for is one more chance
Anxiety makes me want to move in reverse
And fix the big mistake I feel that is my life

This anxiety I feel I know by heart
But do I want to spend forever in the dark?
Is it worth hanging on for dear life?
Will I ever now get another try?

The reasons I’m alone I know by heart
I don’t wanna spend forever in the dark
I swear next time I’ll hang on for dear life
If life ever gives me another try