Hallelujah Rewrite

This is a rewrite of The really famous song Hallelujah. It’s another song I’ve done from a Christian perspective and really describes my experience well.

Now I have ways in my mind stored
That when I get anxious their help afford
But you probably don’t know the crucial one do you?
I get attacks a fourth a fifth
And by the time I get a sixth
I realize that I’ve forgotten Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

My faith’s not strong I need proof
When my anxiety goes through the roof
I feel useless like it overthrew me
Feels like I’m tied to a kitchen chair
It breaks my throne and it cuts me down
Yet from my lips it draws Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

I realize that I always feel the same
And in my issues I forgot your name
And when it gets bad well really I remember
There’s a blaze of light in your Word
And I will bow when it is heard
And I come to you with broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah x4

I do my best doesn’t feel like much
I can’t feel I’ve gone numb and such
You tell the truth and I can’t fool you
And even though my life’s gone wrong
I’ll stand before the Lord in song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Hallelujah x17

The Night We Met Rewrite

This is a rewrite of The Night We Met by Lord Huron. This is inspired by the wanting of things back to how they were, regretting decisions you’ve made, and just wanting to be rid of your mental illness and problems. If you enjoy this please feel free to share it.

If you want a link to the original song here it is https://youtu.be/aQh9eDcS1-0

I feel like the only traveler
Who feels lost and so upset
I’ve been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to before I wept

And then I can tell myself
What the heck I’m supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to hurt the people I do

I figured all of my problems and thought I’d have none of them
Take me back to before I wept
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, mind’s haunted by ghosts too
Oh take me back to before I wept

My nights were peaceful and easy
And my eyes weren’t always full of tears
Anxiety had not touched me yet
Oh take me back to before I wept

I figured all of my problems and thought I’d have none of them
Take me back to before I wept
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, mind’s haunted by ghosts too
Oh take me back to before I wept

Amnesia Rewrite

———-Content warning: This is not a positive post and is best to not be read if your mind is not in a good place.——

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——-Trigger Warning: Suicide——-

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Here is a Rewrite of Amnesia from the band 5 Seconds of Summer. They have been a band that’s very open about mental illness and I’m glad for that. Anyways this is inspired by just how much has changed because of anxiety and what my mind can be like. Just a warning that this one does get dark and may be disturbing to some people. However it is also a very real symptom of anxiety and something I wanted to add in.

If you want a link to the original here it is https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCCJCILiX3o

I was able to go to places and not at all get nervous
I think about that time and how it felt things were so easy
And even though I tell people I’m doing fine

Now I go somewhere and feel lonely even if people are beside me
And people say innocent words but they hurt and I overthink them

Sometimes I start to wonder is it all a lie?
If this illness is real how can I be fine?

Cause I’m not fine at all

I remember the day when I first had this illness
I remember tears that wanted to run down my face
If feels my dreams are shattered and I don’t need them
Same with every single wish I ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about what anxiety really means
The way it feels to fall asleep and hope to die
And bad memories I never can escape

Cause I’m not fine at all

Pictures of me dying are all living in my head
I’ll admit I like to see them I’ll admit I feel alone
Would all my friends notice if I’m not around?

Or would they still be happy how easy would they move on?
Would it be hard to hear my name and know that I’m gone?

I know this won’t happen I know these thoughts are lies
But if these thoughts are real how can I be fine?

‘Cause I’m not fine at all

I now know what it feels like to be very anxious
It’s impossible to think, make small decisions
And your dreams you leave behind you don’t need them
And you crush every single wish you ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about what anxiety really means
Like the way it feels to fall asleep with your pills
Because some nights you know no other way

If today I woke up and this was not beside me
Like having it was just some twisted dream
I’d be more thankful for health than I was before
And I’d never slip away
And here’s what I’d say

I remember what it feels like to feel you’re insane
And I know what it feels like to have tears run down your face
And your dreams you leave behind you don’t need them
Same with every single wish you’ve ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And stop worrying over stupid little things
And how it feels to want everything to be over
And bad feelings that I never can escape

Cause I’m not fine at all
No I’m really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
Cause I’m really not fine at all

 

Piece by Piece Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Kelly Clarkson’s piece by piece. I rewrote this one from a Christian perspective as God is the number one priority in my life and I know He is there for me. As a Christian he is where I turn for my anxiety and that’s what this is about.

And all that I know now is how bad This anxiety can be can’t leave it all in my past I get forced down to my knees to see you       I beg you to want me and somehow you want to

And piece by piece you’re collecting me up Off the ground where I abandoned me         And piece by piece you fill the holes      That I burned in me sometime ago        And I know you’ll never walk away          Or just leave me hanging                         You’ll take care of me                                  You love me                                               Piece by piece you restore my faith        That life can be kind and I can be okay 

And none of your words fall flat                    I think nothing of myself but still you come back                                                     And your love it is so free it cannot be earned                                                           And I have nothing you need to you I should be worthless 

But piece by piece you’re collecting me up   Off the ground where I abandoned me         And piece by piece you fill the holes      That I burned in me sometime ago        And I know you’ll never walk away          Or just leave me hanging                         You’ll take care of me                                  You love me                                               Piece by piece you restore my faith        That life can be kind and I can be okay 

But piece by piece I fell far from your word But you came to me and will never leave   And I should never have to wonder my worth                                                      Because in good faith I can put you first     And I know you’ll never walk away           Or just leave me hanging                             And if I break my heart                           You’ll take care of things                            And love me                                                 And piece by piece you restore my faith       That life can be kind and I should stay