Numb Rewrite

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This song is best to not be read if your mind is in a bad place. It is not uplifting but rather shows darker thoughts
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Lincoln Park wrote songs that are very relevant to mental illness. I try to rewrite songs that do the same here. This is a rewrite of Numb. Please share it if you enjoyed!

I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Can’t live up to what’s expected of me
Put under the pressure of pretending to be okay

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in undertow

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

Can’t you see anxiety smothers me
I hold on too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause I’m not anything I wish I could be
I just fall apart nothing good I can do

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Is my life just a waste? There’s more than I can take

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

And I know everything I fail too
Don’t know how they can like me
Are they just dissapointed in me?

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)
I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)

Back to December Rewrite

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This article is best not to be read if your mind is in a bad place.
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This is a rewrite of Back to December by Taylor Swift. This is about remembering how easy things used to be and what life was like before this illness. I hope you consider sharing this if you like it!

I’m so bad it’s never easy
How’s life? That’s what someone asks me
I haven’t been fine in awhile
I’m not good. As panicky as ever
I make small talk, work but I wither
My guard is up now all the time
Because now when someone sees me
It feels they burn in the back of my head
Are they looking and judging who I am?

So this is me standing here without pride
Wondering where in the world my life has gone
And I go back to December all the time
When I had freedom and wasn’t anxious at all
Wishing I’d realized what I had when I was fine
I’d go back to December and remember being fine
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up playing back my mistakes
When my birthday passed and it felt noone cared at all
And now it’s summer beautiful all the time
I watch people laughing and having fun
Realize I don’t have much at all

I want the cold here, and dark days before fear crept into my mind
Wish I could feel all their love instead of feeling Goodbye

So where in the world is my pride
Doesn’t feel like I have anything left at all
And I go back to December all the time
Where’s my freedom I miss good days
Wish I’d realized what I had being happy all the time
I’d go back to December and realize what was mine
I go back to December all the time

People posting tanned skin, sweet smiles
So good for them, so right
And darkness holds me in its arms on these summer nights
And all I want to do is cry

I know this is wishful thinking
And just mindless dreaming
But if I’m loved again I swear I’ll do it right

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
Now pain is all around don’t understand

This is me where is my pride
Standing out here saying I’m sorry for what I am tonight
And I go back to December
Just want freedom and to stop missing things
Wishing I’d realized what I had when things were fine
I’d go back to December and wonder how to make it right
I’d go back to December and wonder if I can change my own mind

I go back to December all the time
All the time

The Night We Met Rewrite

This is a rewrite of The Night We Met by Lord Huron. This is inspired by the wanting of things back to how they were, regretting decisions you’ve made, and just wanting to be rid of your mental illness and problems. If you enjoy this please feel free to share it.

If you want a link to the original song here it is https://youtu.be/aQh9eDcS1-0

I feel like the only traveler
Who feels lost and so upset
I’ve been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to before I wept

And then I can tell myself
What the heck I’m supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to hurt the people I do

I figured all of my problems and thought I’d have none of them
Take me back to before I wept
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, mind’s haunted by ghosts too
Oh take me back to before I wept

My nights were peaceful and easy
And my eyes weren’t always full of tears
Anxiety had not touched me yet
Oh take me back to before I wept

I figured all of my problems and thought I’d have none of them
Take me back to before I wept
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, mind’s haunted by ghosts too
Oh take me back to before I wept

Because of You Rewrite

——Content Warning: This song is best to not be viewed if your mind is in a bad place—–

—–Trigger Warning: Suicide—-

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This is rewrite of Because of You by Kelly Clarkson. And it’s written as what I’d say to anxiety. This is essentially almost a list of what it’s done to me mentally and what I feel when I’m in a bad place. I hope you enjoy it and if you do please give it a share if you feel so inclined.

If you want a link to the original here it is https://youtu.be/CTTjLxXFg0k

All I do is make the same mistakes repeatedly
And I will let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I just wil break over and over
I fall so hard
I learned the hard way
But still I let it go this far

Because of you
I never stray too far from my comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find hard to to love all of me, and I hurt everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s way too long before I figure it out
All I do is cry
Because weakness is all I am in my eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile a laugh every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from my comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find hard to to love all of me, and I hurt everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I want to die
No one hears me cry at night before sleep
I am so young
How can I know better to lean on things?
I find it hard to think of anyone else
All I see is my pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the very same thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I don’t know how to deal with anything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Begin Again Rewrite

This is a rewrite of Begin Again by Taylor Swift. It was inspired by trying to restart your life and learning to live with anxiety and after major events or big changes. I was actually able to write this in one shot with no changes to the lyrics or syllablea.

Took a deep breath in the mirror
I dont want to be in this spot
But I am
Go to work and I’m on high alert
Feels like I just cant move on
But I do, I do

Walk in don’t wan to talk at all
But people don’t know what’s going and they say hi
I wish they would see and not pull me in
But they don’t know what’s happening
But I do

I run to the bathroom crying like a little kid
It’s strange I have this now cause I never did
I’ve been spending the last few months
Thinking all I ever do is break things hurt and end
But I wonder if theres a way I can learn to begin again

I wish I could find a way
To talk about my problems the way some do
But I can’t
I’d tell stories and I don’t know why
I come off as pretty shy
But I do

I try to talk it all out like a little kid
I think it’s strange that people don’t run cause I thought they would
I’ve been spending the last few months
Thinking all I ever do is break things hurt and end
But now I wonder if I can make things begin again

And I walk down the hall to my room and I need to go to sleep
But my mind wonders about everything I’ve done
Every single attack and I want to move past that
And I start to think about when this will be the past.

And I’ll throw my head back laughing like a little kid
And think it strange that I was like this and what I did
And I know I will spend those months
Thinking of other ways I can love and help and care
Because on a weekday in a cafe I learned how to begin again

Because one day, someday I’ll have learned how to begin again