Falling Slowly Rewrite

Even when things are okay and I’m actually happy this illness still lingers on in the background. And that’s what this next rewrite is about. If you want to listen a long you can do so here. https://youtu.be/4LGavEmg6Xs

You don’t notice; I want you to
All the more for that
Words come easy I even fool me
Yet I can’t relax
And words that never amount
To more than they’re meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We’ve still got time
Raise your hopeful voice, show I have a choice
And I’ll make it out

Falling slowly eyes that know me
And I can’t go back
Moods that take me and erase me
Even when things are on track
I have suffered enough
And warred with myself
How will I know I won?

Take this sinking boat and point it home
Even when I seem fine
Raise your hopeful voice I have a choice
To make it out

Falling slowly, but I can stop me
I’ll sing along

I’ll be fine

I played my cards too late

All’s not gone

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All Too Well Rewrite

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This song was not written in a positive light and is quite depressive. It would be best not to be read if your mind is not in a good place

Trigger Warning: Suicide
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This is a rewrite of All Too Well by Taylor Swift. The sound of this song really captures some of my feelings so I also changed the lyrics to do so. Once you’vehad a mental illness you remember it all too well and when certain feelings return you know them all too well. That’s what this song is about and what the repitition of all too well touches on.

I woke up this morning and my mind was cold
But something bout it felt like home somehow and I
Kinda got used to this mindset all freaked out
I had some good weeks but upset again now
Oh my calm disposition
And my wide eyed gaze
I’m crying in my car feeling lost
All day
The autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
I hope this season is better than my last days

Happiness long gone and my
Magic’s not here no more
I might feel okay but I’m not fine at all

Cause there I am again anxious walking down the street
Thinking there’s nothing good here left for me
Why should I care if I’m there I remember things all too well

Photos of the past
My cheeks were turning red
I used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin sized bed
And my mother told stories and I’d watch the ball game
Now Im thinking about my past thinking where is my future

Feels like it’s long gone and there is nothing else I can do
I forget why I’m staying strong enough and forget why I need to

Cause here I am again in the middle of the night
My brain waking up and engaging me in a fight
Do I care? I am here. I remember it all too well, yeah

Maybe I got lost in translation
Maybe I didn’t try enough
But I don’t feel like a masterpiece
I’ve been torn all up
Running scared do I care? I remember things all too well
Anxiety comes up again and breaks me like a promise
So casually cruel what’s the point in being honest
I’m a crumpled piece of paper lying here
Cause no one remembers all too well

Time will fly and I’m paralyzed by it
I’d like to be my old self again
But I’m still trying to find it
After stressed out days and nights when
I was on my own
People suffer from this why do I walk alone?
Feels like I’m back in that very first week
When I was first anxious and felt up the creek
You can’t get rid of this and I
Remember it all too well

Because here we are again and I
Have another
Seems like this illness is the one real thing I’ve ever known
Do you care? If I’m not there? I know it all too well

Do they care? I’m aware I remember it all
Down the stairs I am there I remember it all
It’s not rare do I care I remember it all too well

Demons Rewrite

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While not as dark as some of my other songs it would still be best if this is not read if you are in a negative place in your head.
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This is a rewrite of Demons by Imagine Dragons. This song is about how much you hold in because of mental illness and how a lot of people don’t really know what’s going on in your head.

My mind’s gone cold and I just fold
And it seems my life is made of fool’s gold
When your dreams all fail behind everyone you trail
And worst of all your air has gone stale

I want to hide the truth don’t want to tell you
Bout my beast inside there’s nowhere I can hide
Sometimes I think I’m freed only to see I’m treed
Is this all for me? Is this all for me?

When I’m feeling beat look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide it’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close it’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide it’s where my demons hide

The curtain call my facade falls
When the light fades out my illness crawls
Should I give up faking and this masquerade?
Will they call me out at the mess I am?

I don’t want to let you down but I am so sick
Though I don’t want to tell you, I can’t hide the truth
Sometimes I think I’m freed only to see I’m treed
Is this all for me? Is this all for me?

When I’m feeling beat look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide it’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close it’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide it’s where my demons hide

Some people think it’s fake but this illness just takes
It’s woven in my soul can’t seem to let it go
My eyes are no longer bright, couldn’t save this light
Can I escape this now? Can someone show me how?

When I’m feeling beat look into my eyes
It’s where my demons hide it’s where my demons hide
Don’t get too close it’s dark inside
It’s where my demons hide it’s where my demons hide

Numb Rewrite

——CONTENT WARNING—–
This song is best to not be read if your mind is in a bad place. It is not uplifting but rather shows darker thoughts
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Linkin Park wrote songs that are very relevant to mental illness. I try to rewrite songs that do the same here. This is a rewrite of Numb. Please share it if you enjoyed!

I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Can’t live up to what’s expected of me
Put under the pressure of pretending to be okay

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in undertow

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

Can’t you see anxiety smothers me
I hold on too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause I’m not anything I wish I could be
I just fall apart nothing good I can do

Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take feels like a mistake to me
Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
Is my life just a waste? There’s more than I can take

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

And I know everything I fail too
Don’t know how they can like me
Are they just dissapointed in me?

I’ve become so numb but I feel everything
Become so tired so much more aware
Of being a mess all I want to do is be less like this and be liked by them

I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)
I’ve become so numb but feel everything
(I’m tired of being what I don’t want to be)

Back to December Rewrite

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This article is best not to be read if your mind is in a bad place.
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This is a rewrite of Back to December by Taylor Swift. This is about remembering how easy things used to be and what life was like before this illness. I hope you consider sharing this if you like it!

I’m so bad it’s never easy
How’s life? That’s what someone asks me
I haven’t been fine in awhile
I’m not good. As panicky as ever
I make small talk, work but I wither
My guard is up now all the time
Because now when someone sees me
It feels they burn in the back of my head
Are they looking and judging who I am?

So this is me standing here without pride
Wondering where in the world my life has gone
And I go back to December all the time
When I had freedom and wasn’t anxious at all
Wishing I’d realized what I had when I was fine
I’d go back to December and remember being fine
I go back to December all the time

These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up playing back my mistakes
When my birthday passed and it felt noone cared at all
And now it’s summer beautiful all the time
I watch people laughing and having fun
Realize I don’t have much at all

I want the cold here, and dark days before fear crept into my mind
Wish I could feel all their love instead of feeling Goodbye

So where in the world is my pride
Doesn’t feel like I have anything left at all
And I go back to December all the time
Where’s my freedom I miss good days
Wish I’d realized what I had being happy all the time
I’d go back to December and realize what was mine
I go back to December all the time

People posting tanned skin, sweet smiles
So good for them, so right
And darkness holds me in its arms on these summer nights
And all I want to do is cry

I know this is wishful thinking
And just mindless dreaming
But if I’m loved again I swear I’ll do it right

I’d go back in time and change it but I can’t
Now pain is all around don’t understand

This is me where is my pride
Standing out here saying I’m sorry for what I am tonight
And I go back to December
Just want freedom and to stop missing things
Wishing I’d realized what I had when things were fine
I’d go back to December and wonder how to make it right
I’d go back to December and wonder if I can change my own mind

I go back to December all the time
All the time

The Night We Met Rewrite

This is a rewrite of The Night We Met by Lord Huron. This is inspired by the wanting of things back to how they were, regretting decisions you’ve made, and just wanting to be rid of your mental illness and problems. If you enjoy this please feel free to share it.

If you want a link to the original song here it is https://youtu.be/aQh9eDcS1-0

I feel like the only traveler
Who feels lost and so upset
I’ve been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to before I wept

And then I can tell myself
What the heck I’m supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to hurt the people I do

I figured all of my problems and thought I’d have none of them
Take me back to before I wept
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, mind’s haunted by ghosts too
Oh take me back to before I wept

My nights were peaceful and easy
And my eyes weren’t always full of tears
Anxiety had not touched me yet
Oh take me back to before I wept

I figured all of my problems and thought I’d have none of them
Take me back to before I wept
I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, mind’s haunted by ghosts too
Oh take me back to before I wept

Because of You Rewrite

——Content Warning: This song is best to not be viewed if your mind is in a bad place—–

—–Trigger Warning: Suicide—-

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This is rewrite of Because of You by Kelly Clarkson. And it’s written as what I’d say to anxiety. This is essentially almost a list of what it’s done to me mentally and what I feel when I’m in a bad place. I hope you enjoy it and if you do please give it a share if you feel so inclined.

If you want a link to the original here it is https://youtu.be/CTTjLxXFg0k

All I do is make the same mistakes repeatedly
And I will let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I just wil break over and over
I fall so hard
I learned the hard way
But still I let it go this far

Because of you
I never stray too far from my comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find hard to to love all of me, and I hurt everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s way too long before I figure it out
All I do is cry
Because weakness is all I am in my eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile a laugh every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from my comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find hard to to love all of me, and I hurt everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I want to die
No one hears me cry at night before sleep
I am so young
How can I know better to lean on things?
I find it hard to think of anyone else
All I see is my pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the very same thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from comfort
Because of you
I always play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I don’t know how to deal with anything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you